vussie can't stop thinking...

 Neocities doesnt work for me right now so I will use my blog since no one sees this -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Im so disgusting oh my god I didn't mean it in that way fuck I made him feel disgusted I'm so sorry I didn't mean it like that please its even worse that you were weirdded out fuck you weren't even supposed to see that that was a vent I was venting oh gcuk I fucking hate them I have ihate ithae them I don't want to do anything with them fucking going to cut myseelg for being so disgusting fuck I dontdseerve anything I hate my life I hate if here I want to die fufmcufkcyu8shdidsup9gdiywiug zdrx 9GR90vdsijpakNZX:ads;l

 >>> 7/1/22 Realized I will never have the chance of being with someone who I can be happy with and not end up being a piece of trash and that I'm only destined to be with people who hurt me and make me feel bad. (yes I broke up with my s/o like a month ago) Why can't I just be with them, they are really kind and are sweet, the way they carry themselves is something I respect and adore as well. I found out they think that when I'm flirting it's just me being platonic with them and now I realized I have absolutely no chance with them, especially since I would be too scared to outright tell them that I like them and even so I would still have a low chance of being in a relationship with them as well due to circumstances. It's upsetting but at the same time, I enjoy being single but knowing that they don't have any interest in me romantically whatsoever makes me feel sad and upset. That I'm, not someone they would consider being in a relationship with

 (SPOILER FOR SB DATING SIM) >>> 3/31/22      I found a dating sim that was being advertised by the author of Suicide Boy so I decided to download it and try all the endings if I can. First I cant read Korean so I used google translate kek but If anyone knows how to translate better please comment on the true translations. Here are some screencaps of the game. I would do a whole page/post on all the endings but it's pretty late but have some screencaps I took while playing the game. I also wanted to buy the suicide boy goodies that Park G is selling but they don't ship to the US so now I'm really sad but I found someone selling a watamote body pillow so I guess that can make up for it lollllll probably shouldn't buy a used one but I don't think they sell any cheap ones online so kek I will see if they still have it up still soon and decide then if I want to waste some money I'm getting soon as a birthday/Christmas present on it or on better things kek A

>>> 3/24/22      I recently just watched this anime I have been seeing on the internet these couple of months and I finally decided to watch it yesterday. It's watamote, I enjoyed it a lot and I heavily relate to the main character Tomoko. In some instances, I felt sad that I could actually relate so much to a character that it felt like I was watching an anime based on my very own life. She seems much more outgoing than I am so I could laugh when she would do things I wouldn't do and not feel so bad for her and myself at the same time. Either way, it is a good anime and had some great moments and sad moments as well. She reminds me of this other character from a manwha named Hooni from suicide boy but he is much more depressed and suicidal than she is, she is much more socially awkward than depressed so that's a difference between the two but I relate to them a lot and I wonder how they would react if they ever met each other lol. It would be an interesting crosso

 >>> 3/18/22      Me irl guys yeah hahaha it's me vussie irl I am so cool and sexy and so intresting and everyone loves me and no one hates me anymore...im so nice and wonderfull to be around all the time everyone wants to be my friend and enjoys my company I'm, not a loser who is a neet that cries every night to themselves in the dark and think about everything that went wrong and tries to kill themselves and ends up failing all the time...im the best and no one can compare to me at all everyone else wants to be me or wants me and no one will lie to me and will be loyal just like how I am and I never loose friends and people who date me likes everything about me and not just my physical attributes and won't toss me away once they used me till there is nothing left to give and won't manipulate me and will only cherish me until one day we have to sadly part from eachother and I'm, not a dissapointment and im so cool im the best beacuse im vussie and whatever

    >>> 3/18/22       I have found out some random person messaged my s/o and are trying to make some moves on him...It's super obvious she just doesn't want to be only friends. I will find everything about her and ruin her life. She is the most plain-looking person ever too, I wish ill upon her and only her. But I do not have to worry about my s/o cheating on me because I know that I am better than her and my s/o has been trying to get with me months before we dated and we have been dating for a while now. I have never felt this sort of rage in a relationship where someone else tried flirting/getting with the person I was dating. This is a sign that I care deeply about my s/o and that I will kill her if she decides to do anything else than being "friends" I will destroy her and watch her cry in agony begging me to stop.